Dream

How many of you Dream??

I do.

I LOVE when I dream I don't know what I would do if I didn't dream

I don't think I would be as happy.

But then again I wouldn't be as sad and depressed

The truth is I use to dream about my wedding day and the guy I was going to marry and how happy he made me and that we were going to live happily ever after.

But I was wrong.

I found my "DREAM GUY" but now I don't know if its really him.

And I don't know if Iwant it to be him anymore.

We became close friends and he was ALWAYS there for me but then things changed

and I didn't know what to do.

We fell apart I was a mess but I couldn't let anyone know I am only 16 I cant have a broken heart already

So I didn't tell anyone I just pushed my way through it and eventually became friends with him again.

Now on a more positive note.

Dreams are happy and sad but we just have to remember that they are dreams some may come true and some may not. And we cant do much to change that.

But..

Did you know that when people appear in your dreams, it's because that person wants to see you?

Okay okay some of you may not believe that and its up to YOUR judgement if you want to or not.

But I believe it.

Okay so here is a quote that speaks a lot of what i have felt.

  I keep thinking of how much I love talking to you.

 How good you look when you smile.

How much I love your laugh.

I day-dream about you off on an, replaying pieces of our conversation,

Laughing at funny things that you said or did.

I've memorized your face & the way you look at me...

I catch myself smiling again at what I imagine...

I wonder what will happen the next time we are together & even though nothing will come out of this,

I know one thing for sure, for once...I don't care, I Cherish every moment I have with you.

FRIENDS MAKE US WHO WE ARE.

Friends

After every post i put

Friends make us who we are.

And today i want to talk about why,

Mostly its because i wouldn't be the same girl i am today with out ALL of my AMAZING friends.

I ABSOLUTELY LOVE LOVE LOVE ALL OF MY FRIENDS

My friends are ALWAYS there for me when i need them and i want them to know that i will be here for them and i will do EVERYTHING i can for them.

Friends are people who help our DREAMS come true. 

I know that my dreams came true when i made new friends

Friends we couldn't live with out them

I don't really have much to say about friends other than

They are always there when we need them and we wouldn't be the same person with out them

Friends make us who we are.

Happiness!

Happiness is just great.

A quote i like about happiness is :

"Success is not the key to Happiness. Happiness is the key to success. If you love what you are doing, you will be successful. "

In order to be happy you must do the things you love to do.

I know that playing Volleyball make me  happy

That's why i play.

Listening to music makes me happy that's why i do it

Now not everything we do is going to make us happy a lot of things we do we may think will make us happy in the moment but in the long run it only makes us sad.

So think before you do.

Another part of happiness is the people you are a round.

Be around the people that make you happy.

Don't be around people who make you sad.

And DON'T be someone who MAKES people sad.

Because then people don't want to be around you.

and that's sad.

Just ALWAYS be happy and fun to be around.

That is something that has been REALLY hard for me

But i am really working on it and i learned not to care what people think of me because the ones that are worth my time don't care what i look like or if i embarrass them because i am crazy

they love me for ME!

And that's all I'm ever going to be.

So be my Friend or don't but don't be both.

I cant take it when people are mad at me it drives me CRAZY

Especially if it is someone i am close to or use to be close to.

People change don't judge them for that we all change. 

We really cant control it in the long run. 

So my advice to you.

Is be who you want to be. Be YOURSELF and don't let others put you down. Don't try to be someone your not. And most importantly HAVE FUN BEING YOU! 

Friends make us who we are. 

Don't give up. 

 "Beauty might bring happiness,

But happiness always brings beauty."

Disappointment

What is disappointment?

Well, to me it is when something is not as great, fantastic, wonderful, fabulous etc.. as you thought or expected it to be. I know that i hate when things are disappointing.

Especially the things you have been waiting for for months.

 Those are the worst.

That's why i try not to get to excited about things because i don't want to be disappointed, which is kinda a sad and depressing way to look at it. So sorry. ha ha

But i really think of it that way.

And now that i think of it its really kinda depressing but the point is don't get your hopes up.

But at the same time do. Be excited about things and just don't let it be disappointing make it fun make it what you expected and more.

Only you can make your dreams come true.

The reason i am writing about disappointment today is because something happened that i wasn't expecting to happen. And it was really disappointing.

Well ill give you the short story.

I saw one of my friends and i hadn't talked the him for a week and i was kinda sad because he always makes me laugh anyways i saw him and i was going to go talk to him but then when i walked over to where he was he walked away and I'm not sure if he saw me or not. But then the rest of the day i didn't see him and it made me really sad and i hope he is okay because he hasnt been acting like he normally does but when i try to talk to him or text him to see if everything is okay he tells me every things fine but i don't believe him.

Which i find kinda sad. I really wanted to talk to him today.

 Oh well that's life.

We all have those days.

Friends make us who we are.

Love

Love: A profoundly tender, passionate affection for another person.

At least that is the dictionary definition.

I think we use love a little to loosely these days. And it is really sad.

Because when our true love comes around its going to take us alot longer to figure it out.

One thing that really bugs me is teenage couple who say there "In love"

They could be and I'm not judging them or saying they aren't, 

I am just saying that most of them are just saying it because they want people to think that they are.

I mean some teenage couples are ADORABLE.

 Because they are shy about their relationship i think it can be so cute.

Okay when you think of love what do you think of??

I can tell you what i think of.

I think of Heart break.

Which is really sad

But it is because i have seen a lot of heart break in my

16 years of life.

But it isn't all bad it makes me know exactly what i want in a guy and what i deserve.

 And I'm not going to settle for less.

This actually reminds me of a quote that i really like

"Don't ever settle, because someone will do anything to be your everything."

I love that quote.

I know for me i want a guy who WANTS to show me off to his friends and family.

Not someone who just is with me because they want a relationship.

Does that make sense?

I hope it does.

A quote that goes a long with that is:

"Find a guy who calls you beautiful instead of hot, who calls you back when you hang up on him, who will lie under the stars and listen to your heartbeat, or will stay awake to watch you sleep.... Wait for the boy who kisses your forehead, who wants to show you off the world when you are in sweats, who holds your hand in front of his friends, who thinks you're just as pretty without makeup on. One who is constantly reminding you of how much he cares and how lucky he is to have YOU..... The one who turns to his friends and says, "That's her.""
                               ~ Chuck Palahniuk

Now, not all of us are going to find a Guy as amazing at that.

But we will at the same time.

What i mean is we are all going to find a guy that makes us feel like that.

But he wont be EXACTLY like that!

Make sense?

The next thing i want to talk about is how to get over some one.

Because i know from experience how HARD it can be.

Have you ever been in love with someone but everyone around you told you that he wasn't the right guy for you and that you need to get over him??

Well, I have and it was HORRIBLE it was the worst feeling in the world.
But i finally did it.

I mean sometimes i find myself thinking about that person and how i want to be with them.

But i remember how hard it was to get over them and i stop.

I mean we are still friends and we always will be.

And now that I'm not IN LOVE with him

We will be better friends.

One of the things i did to get over this guy was everyday i thought about him or saw him i had tell myself "I'M OVER HIM" And when my friends asked be about it. And eventually i got over him.
(Now if you were to ask me about this i would deny it and if you wanted to know who this guy is i wouldnt tell you so DON"T ASK!)

A quote that i really like that helped me get over this guy was:

"And I have come to realize that hes just a guy, a special one maybe but hes not mine. And I don't need to do things to make him love me. If he wanted to he would."

Another one is:

"I'm not going to stress over you anymore. It isn't worth it. I tried to work something out but you just ignored it. I'm not trying to say i don't want you , because i definitely do. All I'm saying is I'm done chasing after you." 

Friends make us who we are.



Promise

If you make a promise keep that promise because there is nothing worse than braking a promise and losing a friend or family member.

Promises are meant to be kept.
A  BIG part is trust you have to trust those you tell promises and i know from my own experience even if someone says they PROMISE doesn't mean they do.

Even if we trust them and believe them doesn't mean they are going to keep that promise.

I know that i told someone something and they promised not to tell anyone and not to make a big deal about and i trusted that person and believed them.

But they broke their promise to me,

They made a big deal about it.

They made it awkward when we were around each other.

And i lost a friend.

And the worse part of that i lost that friend not because i drove them away but because they broke the promise then slowly day by day stoped talking to me stoped trusting me and i had no idea what i did.

I felt that i couldn't trust that person anymore.

I didn't want to tell that person anything.

Even the things that i really wanted them to know and that we always told each other i felt like i couldn't because they broke their promise once.

The good news is in this example i lost a friend but slowly i gained that Friend again and i made a promise to myself that i wasn't going to mess it up this time.

I am going to be myself around them and forget any of this ever happened.
Im going to take a chance and trust them again.

So the moral of the story is don't brake promises,

Make promises.

Not only to others but to yourself.

FRIENDS MAKE US WHO WE ARE.

People ask me why it's so hard to trust people,and i ask them why is it so hard to keep a promise.

 



Grattitude.

Last time we talked about appreciation and how we need to appreciate everything we have.

Like our family and friends.

Today we are going to talk about gratitude.

"Gratitude is one of the sweet shortcuts to finding peace of mind and happiness inside. No matter what is going on outside of us, there's always something we could be grateful for."

I really like this quote because it gets stright to the point.

It doesnt code gratitude and make you figure out the meaning for yourself.

I absoultly love it and strongly agree with it.

We have to be grateful for everything we have.

Because again it can be taken away in a blink of an eye.  

So if you havent lately just stop and think about what you are grateful for and tell those around you that you are grateful for that you are grateful for them.

FREINDS MAKE US WHO WE ARE.

Appreciation.

We have to appreciate everything we have.

Because we never know when it is going to be taken away, we can only hope and pray that our friends and family never will be. And when they are we have to know that everything happens for a reason.

I recently have lost my grandmother who i loved very much.

Her passing was a surprise to everyone.

None of us really saw it coming.

She went to the hospital with stomach problems,

and didn't come home.

There was one song that got me through the whole thing.

It was if i die young by the band perry.

My friend told me about it when i was having a really hard time and i am so thankful for it.

We all lose someone in our life, some we barely even know and some we knew better than ourselves.

We just have to appreciate all those in our life's and remember the came to us for a reason.

I don't know what i would do with out all my friends and family i know i defiantly wouldn't be who i am today.

Friends make us who we are.

Thats life.

This blog is going to be about things that just happen that we may not have wanted to.

But we really just dont have control over.

On this blog i am going to be talking alot about things that have happened to me personaly and after getting it "Okayed" with my friends and family maybe some of there experiences.

Now if your one of those people who judge others or whatever.

Please dont read this blog because it is not for you.

But on the other hand it could be for you .

This is for those who are having hard times and who may be able to relate to my own experiences or those who are close to me.

Now i dont know how good this blog is going to be.

So dont judge. :)

And I hope I can help at least some of you out there.

We all have to make our own mistakes.